My pain all started with one person. I loved that person and gave her my all that i had to her. I tried my best to hold on to this her beauty where before i could find no one who even liked me. I expressed my heart through art to this person, but they just left me and put me into pain. They began to toy with me and i began to die. i seemed nothing more than a mere piece in a game. Then i thought i had to fight in order to keep her but then i saw that i was a tool and i was used and discarded. She began to ignore me and deny even liking me. My heart trully turned cold. I could never forget this person and the hole they left in my heart. A hole they can't get rid of with words or anything that they say. This pain is worse than all. It is the pan of lost love, something not able to be describe, pain of emptiness inside. The cold awakening of realizing that all the beauty that is around you will never be yours and you can never touch it. A person lost in a crowd without any exits or paths to take. A spirit lost, lost in a abyss of loneliness. Now i just hang on by a thread and a shimmer of fleeting hope that someone who i can love openly can save me. Now can you tell me, how long can i endure this and be able to live with what i see and experience everyday. Please someone just save me, before i tumble into the abyss of those who have also been hurt and broke. But for now art is my savior.